It's Possible.
It requires great humility to take the first step towards change. That first step is admitting to yourself: "I have done all this and I must undo it. But I have no idea how I did this so I must surrender to something else". Here's a thought, and I ask that you consider it well, what if the life you're living and each experience that has come to you was sent to you for you to deepen your self awareness and to support you in releasing the mental and emotional conflict that you